Something I liked

Today I was listening to the latest episode of reconcilable differences, as you do, and as they started to get into their main topic they were referring to a two-part episode of the podcast show Search Engine with PJ Vogt. Even though I have said podcast in my feed I hadn't listened to the two episodes they were referencing and talking about so I stopped listening, found the two episodes, and downloaded them.

Why'd I take speed for twenty years? and Why'd I take speed for twenty years? part two!

They are both, great episodes to listen to and very informative. The second episode, however, is the one that struck me the most. I felt identified and seen in many ways, as someone diagnosed with ADHD.

part two is about Dr. Bianca Harris and her story. For her entire life felt something was wrong with her mind and it wasn't until much later in life that she got the medication she didn't know she needed.

Anyway, there's something she said that stuck with me and I totally felt related to it.

Sometimes it bothers me that I need it [the medication], the fact of needing it reinforces the fact that something is wrong with me, which is not something that I would let slide if a patient were telling me this. This only applies to me that I can still say but my brain is broken, **I don't love that about myself**

Many times, when things are very off, perhaps because I forgot to take any of my medications, I don’t love that about myself either. The fact that I am now in need of taking something otherwise I am not entirely myself. 

The whole podcast show is great, there are many other episodes that are worth listening to. I dislike i had missed these two. Probably in one of those “cleaning the house” rampages.