Afraid of missing out.
Dear Journal,
Today is April 2nd, of the year of our lord
2024.
It is currently 57 degrees and Clear out, and the
highest will be 68, that's BBQ and beer weather.
I have been
having weird feelings about my boss taking on a new, much higher,
position and how now the expectation is that I consider the post he
left. I did have a talk with my boss the day (or a few days after) he
personally told us about it, before the official announcement, about
what him taking on this new position could mean for me and my career. I
have very conflicted feelings as I don't want to miss out on the
opportunity about something more. More is better, right? But at the same
time, I love my current status, ish. Yes, I would love to become
something more like, well, before was called a technical expert
and now they call it an analyst and I could be an Analyst or a
Senior Analyst.
However, the vacant
position is for QC Manager, which means managing a small team, which
technically as of yesterday, is a team of One for QC, me, and with
support from my still boss but with a different title and
responsibilities, and it's a little confusing right now. But there's
also the ELISA team
and how could I support them when ELISA is not a thing I do or have deep
experience on?
Also, I think my "boss" already has someone
in mind for the position, or so I was told, and I am afraid of what that
means for me. Yes, I could easily apply for it but I don't want to
manage people, it's not something I believe I have the skills to do or
the desire. I do not mind taking on more responsibilities on top of the
ones I already have but I don't want to be stuck either...
Gaby